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Last night I was bawling my eyes out, due to excessive stress and shitiness of my life... and Brian had just started holding me in our bed... I had Sirius on and Snow Patrol "Chasing Cars" came on... and everything fell into place...

"If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world"

He said "I love you" while staring into my eyes and I replied with "I love you too" just as the song started to go into...

"I don't quite know how to say how I feel
Those three words are said too much
They're not enough"

While everything around us is crumbling we somehow manage to stay perfect for each other.

Current Mood:
loved loved
Current Music:
[snow patrol - "chasing cars"]
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I'm in Palmdale house sitting for the parentals and taking care of the puppies. It seems like this is the only place I actually get some time and piece of mind to write in this silly journal.

I am all moved out of the dorm and in to my new house with Brian <3, Nicole, David and Christina. Brian and I are still unpacking our shit though. But he just got our bookcase so everything should be done soon. I'm so happy with Brian and I can't believe I am living with him. Everything between us is extrememly perfect and couldn't be better. Now if everything else in our lives was good we would be perfect all together! Haha, no such luck though.

I've been sick, as usual. Back on my fat meds. Yippee. And now I am working, and picking up more hours with a second job at my job. Entering data (possibly billing) on top for my PT Aide job. It will be stressful, but hey I am getting more hours and getting paid so I can't complain.

One thing that sucks about moving to Chatsworth is that I don't really get to see my best friends much anymore. This weekend I did though. I miss them. Katie moved out of her house and into a house with a few others as well. I'm happy for her.

Dad's birthday is next Tuesday and we are going to see the METS play the stinking Dodgers... behind home plate might I add! YAY! And I bought him a scoreboard message for his birthday! Yay yay yay! I'm looking forward to it.

Okay well I don't really feel like sitting here and bitching about things so I am going to upload some pictures onto my laptop and go to bed. Goodnight.
Current Mood:
content content
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i am still alive.
ive been busy moving into my house, working, and now finals.
i shall be back after the semester ends and things settle down.
Current Mood:
tired tired
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this semester has been insane. not only on the busy side but on the drama side. ive been spending all my time going to school, going to doctors, chilling with the roomies and being with brian. i have no complaints, except for maybe the doctors. it just seems like spring semesters are going to be the death of me. first last spring sem. i ended up in the hospital, twice, and had to drop two classes. then this semester my grandma dies, then the next weekend my mom is in the hospital for a few days, then a couple weeks later im "looking like death" and almost hospital bound. and every enventful weekend ive had insane tests, lab practicals and upper ge tests... stressing over getting things done when i dont have enough time to run back and forth from drama filled event to the next. when i was sick brian took care of me. hes pretty much the best thing in my life right now. its such a big change to have someone care for me the way i do for them. im used to putting in so much more than the other person, now i feel like i cant keep up with him. he does everything for me even when i tell him to knock it off.

my roommates Christina, Nicole, plus Brian and this dude David got the house we wanted. we move in on the 12th. ive been busy beating my brains out trying to be creative with decorating not only to my liking but brians as well... as we shall be sharing the master bedroom. ive also been going to interview after interview and applying for job after job until i finally got one this week. they pretty much hired me right on the spot and i started the next day. it was a tough day tho. i went to one interview and got hired, then i called this place went in for the interview that day and got that job too. i passed up the $16/hr job for the $10/hr job. but its better for my future and i really really enjoy it.

its so weird. i came into this semester saying "im just gonna go have fun and fuck around" (not literally)... and then i meet this dorky guy in my Kin 200 group who after finding out im new decides to be the nice guy and invite me to lunch. i turn him down for my dad, and feel completely bad. i go to find him on myspace and couldnt, then i go on facebook to try and he finds me there, then we have lunch and he helps me move in and we fall madly in love with each other. then as soon as you know it, we're moving in together. its not even like me, its so unexpected, but i love it. it feels right. it doesnt feel wrong at all. i love brian so much. its insane.
Current Mood:
loved loved
Current Music:
[brian's snoring]
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